Blog Archive 10

March 2005
Thursday, March 31, 2005 - Computers are gay..
This is bitch still isn't working, and I'm defnitly about to shoot it.

Appetizer - What is the worst movie you've ever seen? there are many, a series of unfortunate events, which I just saw was pretty bad, though I think Ella Enchanted beats it
Soup - Name something that reminds you of your childhood. My old house
Salad - If you had to live in a large city, which one would you want it to be? London or Sydney, they are both amazing, Sydney is really just a cleaner version of London
Main Course - What's a "big word" you like to use to impress people? I could go on for years, lol. I cant think of any off the top of my head, though when I do use them its not to impress people but just because it usually just come out naturally (not to brag, thought it probably sounds like I am)
Dessert - Describe your hairstyle. Long and straight, for preparation you just brush, lol

I really can't type today, my hands are frozen from track, I'll get to that later. We also got a new chair, which is even lower than the old one and I can't reach the top of the desk very well. I was using some books to sit on earlier, but that was too uncomfortable. I was also talking to Sarah on my cell which tested my multi-tasking skills
off to eat I'm getting really annoyed with myself and my antisocialness. I don't want to be that way, I just am really shy and not good at doing anything else to ammend that quality.
I hate and love myspace, it never fails to remind me of the aforementioned quality and my resulting lack of friends. I really need to stop being so self-consumed or something, I dont know, maybe I just need to stop thinking.
12:15

Tuesday, March 22, 2005 - Life sucks and then you die...
I'm not too optimistic at the moment, in case you couldn't tell. I'm just not feeling that great. Everyone in the house has taken opposite attitudes; Alex for once in his life is being nice, while I am finding only conflict with Dad and Dan, and I am actually getting along with Mom (although she doesn't live in the house)
I can't believe this ftp file associations are not working again. Just when I got Grimmauld working too, figures.
I just can't wait for Thursday morning and Cancun, life is throwing me a hardball in general right now. I'm so conflicted and distressed, confused, annoyed, frustrated, I can go on for hours.
I dont feel like doing any work, and at this point I am certainly not going to school tomorrow. I havent studied at all for the Chem test and have not done any of the homework. Besides English, which I might miss cuz of my orthodontist appointment, nothing else is worth going for. I was going to go because of track but Todd said it would be cancelled if it rained, and its supposed to rain all day.
Track is a really frustrating area for me also. Its such a mental sport, and very hard to control your performance. You can't like put extra effort in to do better, its all about technique and movement, etc. I threw shot today, I suppose overall I don't like being outdone. Rachel Staley throws like 30,32 about. I'm throwing 25, 24. She's not as good as Steph, but maybe that makes it worse, cuz then I feel I can actually be as good as her, while with Steph it feels as if shes on a completly different level, which she is.
I love how I go to update the fanlistings I joined, and like 70% of them are gone, its hilarious really
I threw okay today I guess. 24,25 really isn't that bad. I just didn't feel like I improved much. We learned how to "squash the bug", lol. I need to work on that and my block arm, and as always my torque and power. Todd always reminds me of my hip twisting and power when I throw, maybe I don't have any of them, lol. My glide, as always sucks. I do like everything possible wrong, though it wasn't as bad as usual today: I threw the same as I did from the power instead of less.
Discus I'm doing alright in, Chelsea really surprised me today, she was throwing discus awesome. I was so jealous, lol. It was kind of nice without the guys there. It will also be weird when Sarah and Brice get back, since they have been gone for so long. They're awesome though, I miss them, in a way.
I am off to bed I think, will actually finish my English paper first, hopefully talk to Dad when he gets home. Then getting ready for Cancun. I may or may not be on tomorrow, only time will tell
11:43

Monday, March 21, 2005 - The Saga Continues...
Yea, the homework never ends, or so it seems. I want to try and finish my English paper tonight, even if it kills me. I'm gonna do some writing here first to clear my mind though.
Now in addition there is a Chem test on Wednesday. If I wasn't missing track, I would almost certainly not be going to school, or at least leave early. It just screws everything up. I wanted to go out with Mom Tuesday night. I still am I think, it'll just be a late night. Whatever, I really am getting pissed off at all of my schoolwork and am beginning to not care at all. Not too good for my grades, but whatever.
English was interesting again, now that I understand the Scarlet Letter. I can't help but be inspired by Mr. Marquart's fervor. Some of my friends have said I should go and talk to him, considering I like his class so much, but I'm always afraid of disturbing him. He's not very approachable, though he is very nice to talk to sometimes. I'm not the most social person myself, and am not apt to go and chat with teachers.
Dinner smells so good, my stomach is like dying cuz I havent eaten since lunch.

Some introspection to clear my mind now. Well, I noticed today, how thoroughly unpopular and antisocial I am. Most times I don't really care or notice, but I do regret not being more open and friendly to people and not making more or closer friends with a lot of people. Like Karl for example.
I also pain at the hearing of Chelsea talk about her and Joe. I mean, I certainly don't like Joe anymore, there's a little feeling there, but nothing special, more just a yearning for a friendship. He's so much more open and carefree and friendly with her. I could say the same thing to him as her and he would react much more thoroughly to Chelsea. I've given up now I suppose, it is about time. People relations always befuddle me (for lack of a better word). I'm not good with them at all, I nearly always find some way to screw everything up, be annoying, or somehow drive people away.
I have few friends (and acquaintances for that matter), but I guess it is nice having really close, but very few friends rather than a large number of not so good friends. I reminisce sometimes though, when I see people like Karl and all his friends (today specifically with Rahter, Cait (jr), and a senior who goes out with Rahter) just having fun and making fools of themselves (kind of). I don't know, I guess the grass is always greener on the other side.

This is a pretty long entry, I'll not stop myself now.
Do you ever get tired of life? Just plain tired of everything that you wish you could just take a break from it all and just read a book on some deserted island.
I love NCAA basketball, I'm sorry, but there is absolutly nothing like March Madness. All the games are so tight and played really well. All the players put in so much effort and emotion too, for many of them, it could and is their last game of basketball ever. Its so great to watch, and its fun to pick a team, and just watch the game formulate.
I'm so tired, I can't wait until Wednesday night. I wish I could really just fastforward in time to that point. I have wished to do that many a time before, primarily with papers or homework, and erg testing (2ks-something I don't and never will miss about crew). They, 2ks, were good for you though. It pushed you to your limit, and although you dreaded it for the whole day and it absolutly killed you while you were doing it, you have a tremendous feeling of accomplishment afterwards, which Ican't say I've ever experienced the equal of at any other time.
Just rambling here, aren't I? That is what I do, a favorite past time of mine. My language is toning up, I suppose it finally time to remain seated, lol, and open word, and think, and start writing.

Ashley threw a snowball @7:20 PM
Isn't it highly annoying, how when you finally sit to down to work or get on a roll with your work, anyone and everyone disturbs you. I just began and then I had to sort some stuff out with my site host for Grimmauld and then I had to goto dinner. Then Dad calls me and tells me to heat up some pasta for Alex, which I'm sure he won't eat anyway. Now, of course, I can't concentrate, as is always the way with such things. Maybe I'll put on some Sinatra, help me to relax, get in the mood a bit.
Sometimes I despise myself. I'm so damn quiet all the time, never making friends, and never standing up for myself or speaking my mind or ideas. Then, when I do get comfortable with people, I get annoying and obnoxious and manage to drive them all away. Talk about needing moral perfection; I should really just redo my whole personality as it lacks in innumerable aspects. Many of my faults never fail to reveal themselves to me on a daily basis. Maybe you need to reach the point where you have to try to reform yourself, yet accept the fact that it is who you are and learn to live with it.
8:36

I figured out what I was doing wrong on my ftp for Grimmauld, actually Sheila (my hostess) did, lol. At least thats all fixed. I need to get down to work now, I think I'll sign offline, its too distracting for me. I'm listening to my Sinatra, hopefully that will inspire my creative genius, lol, if that exists.
I give up, I just don't feel like giving any effort today. Life is too hard today. MUST GO WORK NOW, or I'll killl myself, and that would not be a pretty sight: alive I'm not a pleasing sight, dead... well its just that much worse. Im just joking, but its kind of interesting to contemplate death in such a relaxed way sometimes, makes it more familiar and not shocking.
9:03

Sunday, March 20, 2005 - Papers, ha...
Yea, well, I did one of them at least, or have almost completed the one, lol. I'll try and think about the other one before I goto bed, and then pull an allnighter tomorrow. Then Write my newspaper articles over the break.
Here's something Malamaci wrote in his myspace blog which I though was very inciteful and I hope he wont mind my stealing

These are some things I've learned .. the hard way .. in the past months of my life.
1. Life is a good thing; don't let it get you down.
2. There are some people you think you can trust that you really can't.
3. There are some people you don't think that you can trust that you really can.
4. Even when you think there isn't, there is always someone who really cares about you, outside of your family.
5. Never let them see you sweat.
6. When you think you really know someone or something, think again. It's highly doubtful that you do.
7. Nothing in this world is worth you taking your own life.
8. Be yourself; don't pretend just to fit in.
9. Be wary of your surroundings and the people in them.
10. Don't lead people on; it's how they are hurt.
11. This one I'm not too sure on yet. I've heard it from many people, but I'm definitely not sold on it, but I hope it is true: Everything happens for a reason. Good or bad, shit happens, you can't stop it, you can't contain it. It's fate. Roll with life. As much as it may hurt at this moment, it will go away; maybe not today, tomorrow, next week, or next month, but let it burn and you will recover.
12. You think you know who you want to be in a relationship with, but you really don't. There is a soul mate for everyone. At this point in life, you most likely won't find them. So have fun with yourself; don't put your whole heart into one person, that's how you get hurt.
13. Wear you heart on your sleeve. Don't be afraid to show emotion. It is one of the most admirable qualities a person can have. Expressing yourself not only shows maturity, it feels good.
14. Speaking of wearing your heart on your sleeve: The last thing I can think of that I learned is that these blogs/online journals are a good way to get feelings out. Once you start typing, it just flows and you find yourself with a huge entry. When you're done and go back to read it, you really realize who you are as a person. The act that you may put on for other people disappears. You type only for yourself, not actually expecting people to read this. So, it's for self-fulfillment. And it works damn well.

pretty cool, eh? I at least thought it was.I forget whether he is on my team or not? I think he might be, but then again I have doubts. We won the scrimage anyway, no bleachers, mwhaha. I didnt really care about the bleachers, it was more just the competitive winning thing. I was happy, I got points in shot and discus, 3rd and 2nd, could be worse. Steph would be kicking my ass in both of course if she were here, and Sarah would have beat me at discus, but oo well. I want to try Jav again sometime this week. Got to go finish now, cya later.

Ashley threw a snowball @12:42 PM
Friday, March 18, 2005 - Weekend = papers...
This week went by really fast, it seems like I was just writing my last entry.
Anyway, only a short message, have to go do my english and history papers. Did I mention I hate papers?lol
Ro brought in pictures from Michelle's christmas party, they are so hilarious, I want like all of them. Me and Steve counted that we are in the least amount of photos, he in 3 Im in like 4 or 5. We just don't like bing in photos I think, not our thing. Michelle and Kevin are in like all of them, which is pretty funyy.
I better get off, I still can't beat the expert level on minesweeper, I think its impossible, I'll try once more, lol. namarie (working)
Ashley threw a snowball @3:59 PM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005 - Sickness...
My throat is killing me, I can barely talk, and my nose is constatnyl running or clogged, I'm coughing all the time. Let's just say I don't feel well.
Everyone else is getting sick too. Chelsea seems to be getting a little better, but I think she got me, Joe, and Brice sick in the process, lol.
Today I had practically all frees. The only classes I had were gym 4th, if that counts, and a math test 8th. I was in the library the whole day, almost fell asleep one period when I was all by myself.
Track wasn't bad besides the fact that Todd spent the whole time outside with the javelin people. I was trying to discus but gave up in the end because I had no idea what I was doing. I threw shot a couple times, hit around 24, 25, okay.
I am so relieved that Eamon and all his friends quit, they were really dragging the team down, and just wasting Todd's energy and time. There were only 4 people at shot, 5 at discus, but then like 10 or so at jav. It was nice to have less people, more like winter.
I am getting off to go to bed, so tired and just sick. blah. Im tired of life, I need an extended vacation: can't wait til spring break, so much fun.(sick)
Ashley threw a snowball @9:35 PM
Note from Karl on my MySpace:"hey....ashley grant, shes cool in that hey look at me my name is ashley grant and im a cool girl named ashley grant and you know you wanna be my friend because everyone wants to be frends with me because im that just that dern cool but i dont wanna be cocky yet im confident in myself and i rock like 3 boulders in a pebble parade sorta way....huzzah for ashley!"

Monday, March 14, 2005 - School Sucks...
Doing a lab, figured I'd post something, since I can't concentrate on working. I have to study for math and do 3200 too. ARHH!! I hate how you get everything at once, oo well, I guess. No stopping it. I didn't even bother bringing my french homework home, that it what "home"room is for, haha. Yea, a little corny joke of mine there.
Track was annoying today. I tried jav(elin) and really sucked at it. Ashley Cleaver is good of course. Todd keeps calling me Cait again. Its pretty amusing actually. I talked to Brice most of the time and just complained about how bad I was. I'll probably throw discus tomorrow. I tried throwing shot a couple times at the end, I didn't even hit 25, pretty sad. I have 8 days until spring break where I'll probably retrogress and suck all over again, lol.
Looking at cotillion pictures, I'm in like none. Any pictures people take for that matter. Maybe people don't like taking pictures of me, lol, I'm too repulsive, lol, j/k. I like to stay in the background, thats just my style.

Sunday, March 13, 2005 - THe Aftermath...
Cotillion was awesome! I had so much fun. It was hard to tell with Karl, it looked like at times he was having fun, but I couldn't really tell. I was so much shorter than him I felt bad, lol. I really do think that I got a crick in my neck from looking up so much. Oo well, he was a lot of fun, we danced a lot. I felt like I hardly got to see any of my friends, I moved around a lot, with Karl's friends sometimes to keep him company, though I don't know if he would have preferred me not too, I tried not to worry about it too much.
Karl was amazing though. He looked really good, I felt bad, he had such a bad day, lol. Then I found out why he had to be home by 12: he's only 17 and doesn't have his full license yet. I hope he made it home okay.
It went by so fast, I was really sad when it was over. The caf looked really good, Im sad I didnt take any pictures of it, I'll have to get loads from everyone else. I'll annnoy them til they give me some, lol. I must go work, unfortunatly
Appetizer - Where do you go when you want to relax?outside, away from everyone else
Soup - Tell about something that made you laugh this week.Just about all of cotillion last night.Karl was hilarious, I love him (not like that)
Salad - What is your favorite texture???, for food, or feeling, I dont know, too random
Main Course - If you were to publish your autobiography, what would the first sentence be?Finding the ordinary in the extraordinary seems to be a mission in many lives, yet why not look for the exrtaordinary in the ordinary?
Dessert - Do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day? If so, how?irish potatoes, wearing greem, nothing big (ecstatic - about last night)
Ashley threw a snowball @6:54 PM
Thurday, March 10, 2005 - Rejoice for Track...
Yea, track is awesome, I love it to death. Todd is my idol, though I don't see him a lot in the spring which definitly sucks. I tried discus yesterday, it was too cold though and Todd really didn't show us how to do it. I did shotput today, not too bad. At first I thought the first line 20 and I wasn't reaching it so I was like God, I really suck, I didn't think I would regress this much in a couple of weeks, but I found out it was actually 25 so I wasn't doing too badly.
It was also better today cuz Karl was there, he is so funny, I love him. Joe came over later after throwing some discus and the two of them are hilarious together, a rival to Billy Boyd and Dom Monaghan. Dom was there, he seems pretty cool, he helped me a bit.I talked to Ashley C a bit, and Steph. Im sad Steph is doing crew, shes fun to hang around with at shot, give some seriousness to the team, lol. It felt more like winter today, I'm gonna try javelin tomorrow, see how that goes, hopefully Todd will help me with that one (yea Im an attention whore, so what)
Ashley threw a snowball @6:47 PM
Tuesday, March 8, 2005 - K-arl is awesome
Old Friday Feast...
Appetizer - Name 2 things you do that you consider beneficial to your health. I don't drink much soda and I am involved in a sport
Soup - If you made a New Year's resolution, how's it going so far?pretty bad, lets just say its as good as forgotten
Salad - Name something that has happened lately that bothers you. Handed my English paper in late. Its unresponsible and I hate being that, it kills something inside of me, like the time when I had to leave track practice to help Sarah, I felt so torn, I was dying,lol
Main Course - What is your favorite quote, and who said it? at the moment, "Who has never tasted what is bitter does not know what is sweet", a german proverb
Dessert - What do you collect?

Monday, March 7, 2005 - English Paper...
Yea, it was due today, whatever. I wasn't in school and I didn't do it. Got a problem with that? too bad. I should finish it I suppose, I got high on myself when I say I had 431 words, its only 750-800, so at a minimum, about 300 words to go, including introduction and conclusion.
Check out the icons page, I added some I've made recently so there is actually some stuff to look at, lol. I'm slowly building the site, its a gradual process. Cotillion
-tie
-necklace
-shoes
-makeup
Appetizer - Who is the one person you email more often than anyone else?probably sarah, misc forwards and other stuff
Soup - So far, which year of your life has been the most enjoyable?6th grade, whatever year that was. I went to Australia and England that summer. Although I was obssessed with Jay I had fun with him, soccer and basketball
Salad - Name someone with whom you have lost touch but would like to reunite. JEREMY- definitly, we were awesome friends in 3rd, 4th, 5th grade but he moved to mighigan, now hes in Texas I think, also my old best friend Lisa Pryor who moved to North Carolina. We got along so well we had fake fights for fun cuz we never had real ones
Main Course - What was the tastiest meal you had this past week?tatsiest,lol...saturday night, the ziti after the famine, it only tasted that good cuz I was absolutly starving after 30 hours
Dessert - Using the letters in your favorite color, write three words that describe your personality. cerulean...clean,clear,(and under control, haha, j/k)lure, I don't know, lol.(working)
Ashley threw a snowball @10:31 PM
...Later...
I feel bad about handing my Longfellow paper in late. If I had known I'd be the only one I would have handed it in earlier, or at least tried harder, oo well. I'll drop it off in the morning tomorrow and apologize or leave a note. It was a psychological thing really. I didn't purposly say oh, I have an extra day, I'll hand it in late. It was just in the back of mind and wouldn't allow me to focus last night. I'll have to make sure its extra good to make up for that fact, lol.

Monday, March 6, 2005
There is nothing like a good cup of pg tips. If I smell it while its still hot it brings me back to England. That is something, if nothing else that relaxes me a bit and eases my mind.

Thursday, March 3, 2005 - err,blah,err,blah,err,blah...
Yea, I just thought it sounded interesting. I'm bored as hell as usual. NOthing to do with my life. I decided against going to track tomorrow, I 'd be the only girl, even Steph isn't going. No fun, kind of intimidating, I don't want to look like a dork, so w/e.
Course selection meeting today. I have no idea what I'm doing. I've contemplated many different routes, ultimatly, I need to talk to my counselor I think, although I've never done so before. I dont know, thinking about the future is no fun.
Why can't anything ever be easy? Hmm..?? I feel bad for Mere, D-squared told her he couldn't goto cotillion, and yet hes going with another sophomore. He should have just come out and told her he didn't want to go with her. If Joe did that, as I told Chelsea, I would shoot him. Or I'd at least get really angry and have it out with him.
Joe, a source of many of my problems and confusion. My life would be so much easier without him. He never seems very interested in talking online, something I think only happens with me cuz Ive heard of good conversations he has had with Sarah and Chelsea. I feel like I'm carrying the conversation, and most times I don't feel like giving that kind of effort; I'll go in 50% but he requires like 80%, I don't think so. I wish he would just talk, like relaxed and all. I know he has some depth to him.
I dont know, I wish I had a guy who I could talk to more in depth, you know good conversations like I have with my friends who are girls. I guess I want a good guy friend. Why isn't Steve on, lol. Karl is fun too. Joe would make a good friend though, I don't know why he seems so reluctant. Does he think I like him? Which I do a little, but its more of an affection or adoration for lack of better description. Am I really that unappealing or (can't think of the word, something that turns people off).
I just don't know. Gosh, I should go do homework and some things of quality worth. I seem to be at a loss for words today, can't think straight. Maybe that is from the 4 hours sleep, lol. I have to stop saying I don't know, even I am getting annoyed by it now. I always tend to use like when I am speaking also, a horrid habit.
I'm gonna go do some icon and myspace stuff, maybe jazz up this site a bit, who knows, add some of my icons, lol. (sick)
Ashley threw a snowball @4:39 PM
Wednesday, March 2, 2005 - Fun Times...
I'm so damn bored, mostly because I'm on this machine (my new name for it, lol). Watching Lost too, great show, I love it. I really don't know why Im on the computer, bored I guess, thought I have plenty of homeworkand other stuff to do.
I updated the site a lot yesterday, in all my spare time, lol. I have to finish my bookmark tonight, or Mrs. Croche will have my head.
I'll probably get off soon. No one besides Ashley is on, to talk to. Joe is away, @ Eustace, probably with his Dad for new Frosh registration and girls basketball game. I loved his away message earlier, din din, lol. JOe is so cute, its funny. I wish all guys were like him, but then again I also wish he werent so charming so it would be easy not to like him (as more than friends, OOO, lol).
I'll do a friday feast before I leave...
Appetizer - Name something that makes you scream. When people get hurt. Like at track when JOe (or anyone else) falls, just a feminine reaction I suppose, lol
Soup - Who is a musician you enjoy listening to when you want to relax? Switchfoot, or any of my acoustic soundtracks
Salad - What was the last book you purchased? An Earthly Knight, about medieval Scotland, some chimerical (vocab word- I go crazy for vocab words after a test, using them nonstop) elements. awesome, couldn't put it down, good love story
Main Course - If you could live one day as any historical figure, who would it be, and what would you do?hmmm.. a hard one...
Dessert - Tell about a time when you were lost. Where did you end up? How long did it take you to get back to where you were going?I can't remember any realy time I was truly lost, in the literal sense of the word, to tell you the truth.(lazy)
Ashley threw a snowball @8:21 PM
Im so damn frustrated. I hate days like this. You can always tell when I have them because I make lots of tea, write a lot and get pretty emotional (thought the last is usually within the privacy of my own room). I figured out another feature of what causes these "breakdowns" of mine. I strive for perfection.
When I was doing my bookmark, I got so pissed and frustrated cuz it wasn't coming out right, and my sketches were ten times better than what I could do on the bookmark in ink (which I've never used before).
I haven't done any of my homework, I'll do it after I get off, although it is now 12:18. I'm so damn tired of life.
I hate how I'm so pessimistic. I get in these funks where I can't help but obssess over everything thats wrong with me and think why can't I be better, what can I do to make things better? Especially with guys. I loathe being jealous, I have nver yet let my jealousy get out of control and drive me to do something. Guys, just annoy me. Without them my life would be so much more carefree.
I despise the sick feeling I get in my stomach at times like this, tea helps, but my twinnings has gone bad, I'll have to go back to pg tips, although sparingly, since they come from across the pond.
I just, I dont know. I like JOe, I have to face that fact, though I am slowly getting over him, as every other guy I have ever liked. Sarah, no fault to her, was telling me how she was talking to him, and when she asked why he wasnt going to cotillion, I forget exactly what she said. Then she said he was saying that they should hang out sometime, and asked if she wanted to alone or in a group. I guess, it just hurts. I don't think Sarah realizes how lucky she is to have guys falling over her feet.
I've never had any guys, and its not for lack of wont for them. I mean, I'm not pretty, I know that, I am in no means skinny. I wish I could even just find a guy friend who would be there for me. Steve probably would be, hes awesome, but I don't know.
Its amazing how repetitive I am in these type of moods. I've said these same things thousands of times before, yet they mystify me still.
I better go. It is more than late. I need to make more tea to calm my stomach. Hopefully finish my bookmark, which I'd prefer to just throw out at this point and maybe attempt some of my homework if I feel up to it, which with any luck I will. tenna' telwan, bon chance(frustrated)
Ashley threw a snowball @1:03 AM
Tuesday, March 1, 2005 - Snow Day #3...
The snow days are finally getting onerous. It feels like a Wednesday for some reason, its easy to lose track of the time when you're out of school. I'm getting nothing done, though it is a nice relaxing and rejuvenating time for one's health, mind, and sleep.
Had fun with a bulletin on myspace: type your name with your elbow --> asnbley . Not too bad compared to many. I could have probably done it perfectly, but I lost patience, its a metter of using the point of your elbow, but w/e, enought thinking and analyzing alreday, lol.
I'm so bored. Just wasting time on the computer as always, at least track starts on friday, a surprise to many. I have downloaded like 50 fonts today, working on my atrocious icon-making skills (that are non-existent). Made an okay phantom icon, here...

Could be worse, right? I need to get greymatter, I'll make that a project for myself over summer, the schoolyear is just far too hectic.
I need to get off this... machine, before I lose my mind

To Do for cotillion -buy and clean dress
-' purse
-' shoes
-' "undergarments", hahaneed to fix
-' necklace
-' bracelets
-' earrings
-' fabric
-' covering?
-' tickets
-arrange matching w/Karl
-' flowers
-' plans
-' hair
-' nails
-' makeup

-(anything I forgot) (lethargic- a vocab word, maybe I'll finally take the test tmw, after 3 snow days, lol)

Ashley threw a snowball @7:05 PM
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