*British at Heart*

Archive 14

August 2005

Wednesday - August 10, 2005 - One Day...

I dont kow why I have been so easy-going and bubbly today. Its like a mild dose of love, lol, though I can assure you I have a crush on no one at the moment. I mean, I know I am happy about going to England, for countless reasons, and its nice to have the History paper off my chest and gone. Still, it feels like something more. Maybe its my newfound interest in music, who knows, lol.

Never got to clean my grandmother's today, she wasn't feeling well, oh well. Missed the money, but got to relax, hang with mom, get a nice shower, spend some time at the library. I got some cd's there (weezer, OC Mix 4 - both awesome), one movie (thirteen -looked interesting from the reviews I heard), a dear america book (fun to be a kid again isn't it), a teen novel (second helpings - its prequel sloppy firsts was awesome, cant wait to start this one), and three trashy romance novels (lol). I have Kate to blame for the last, she got me started on it, lol. It's fun to read them, and just be like "oh, if only I were in love", lmao, it's a good time. The one I'm reading now is horrible, about like theives and it's just really bad, hopefully I'll just get it out of the way tonight.

I feel like writing a lot, be braced, lol.
Tom is so deep, for lack of a better word, if you check out the blog entries on his myspace, it's just amazing. When I read them I was like whoa. I told him he needs to write for the paper, I would like some company. Watch me be the only junior in the journalism class, I'm the only one who has previously written for the paper. I don't know why more people don't. Eustace, being the prep school that it is, has an abundance of great writers. I just love to write for fun on stuff I like to talk about. I can't complain, I'll probably be editor next year which is awesome, editorials, score! lol, Ms. Patterson, who runs it is awesome, shes really relaxed for a teacher and is very encouraging.

Talking with Sarah, something I do a lot, got me thinking on guys. People, myself included always look for drama and excitement. My life, a blessing almost, has little to no drama in it. I am always on the edge of scandal, though I never partake in it myself. I'm kind of boring as a person really, when you think about it, but I really could care less to tell you the truth.
Back to guys, I haven't actually liked any in a while. After the whole Joe annoyance/fiasco I didn't like anyone at all at the end of the school year. I must say I prefer it that way. The rest of the year was a mess as far as guys were concerned; between Brad "monkey-boy" and Joe, yea, well let's just say it was less than fun. I haven't really liked anyone this summer. While I was in West Virginia, Joel, from my work group was really... adhering? I cant think of the word I am looking for. He has a lot of qualities I like in guys, not to mention he wasn't too hard on the eyes, lol (though I don't know how many of my friends at Eustace would agree- facial hair and afro included,lol). I'll have to put up a picture of him. I and everyone else thought he was about 20, when he was actually only 17, about a year older than me. He also just like attracted your attention, he was always talking, doing funny stuff, and just putting on a show to make everyone laugh.
Matt at my job was cool too, kind of resembles Joel, big hair again, lol. Same kind of rocker/vintage style that isn't very present at Eustace. He was just fun to talk to, and look at.

Starting to tire out now. I need to stop saying "lol", a bad habbit really. As is my habit of saying "really" and "like". (excited)

Ashley thought you were the one @7:01 PM

Monday - August 8, 2005 - If Only This Paper Were Fail-Safe Too...

...and I didn't have to actually write it. If only... I really despise writing papers, especially history ones. They are asmuch a waste of time, if not more so than lab reports. You don't actually learn anything or research that much for them and neither is it an adequate display of one's writing skills as Mr. Threston claims to validify his request for this stupid piece of writing.
Needless to say, I have yet to start writing or actually thinking about this paper. I have successfully avoided it for the last hour or so on the computer. I suppose it is time to get off and look at my notes, but I am wont to do that. I did make one promise to myself not to start a new book before I finished this dreadful assignment. That only serves to make me obssess over my previous one though.

Appetizer: Briefly describe your living room. my family room as we call it, has my brother's toys on one side, shelves piled with antiquities and titanic memorabilia in the wall on either side of a fireplace. There is a couch, love seat and chair, made of wood and plaid patterned cushions, forming half a square in the center on a marroon carpet. in another corner is the tv, another corner has our air conditioner, and the final corner has a bar concealed in the wall. There are two regular windows, a large bay window and a bureau to complete its contents.
Soup: List 3 things you'd like to accomplish before the end of 2005. My SAT book, and getting a decent grade on the SAT's. I'd also like to acquire a job I don't dread going to everyday where I make decent money.
Salad: When you're online, what do you spend the most time reading/playing/doing? Suggest a site. I usually work with my Paint Shop Pro, making icons or other stuff for my sites. I read my mail, go on icon sites for hp/lotr/etc. icons, lately I have been posting on a Harry Potter forum. I also use my downloader, BearShare, and listen to some music. My favorites... Fastweb(college scholarships), MySpace (addictive,lol), Harry Potter Icons (on LiveJournal)
Main Course: What would the title of your autobiography be? I've definitly been given this before, as of now, an Autumn shower, dont ask me why, too deep, lol
Dessert: What time do you usually go to bed? between 11 and 2, lol, depends if I feel like reading or not, or if before bed I get started on something on the computer, or a drawing, or something of the like.

Josh Groban is my idol, haha, j/k. His voice is just breath-taking though, I could listen to it all day, and in fact sometimes do.
I love thunderstorms too. They are just, I don't quite know why they fascinate me so much. Whenever there is one though, I can't stay inside or just continue what I'm doing: I have to be out in them, just taking it in. Just breathing in the clean, fresh air, feeling the cool drops fall out of the depths of the sky onto your face and arms. It's one of those feelings I con't replicate or describe. There's something that really gets me about just embracing nature, in that way, and the pureness and wholeness of it.
Time for some rain, I think...

I think my hair is sufficiently damp from that nice storm. I always get scared by the booming cracks of thunder more than any lightning. I have to either run away or hold on to someone when they come, lol.

I still haven't don much, I just can't force myself to actually do anything, this is why I always procrastinate. (exanimate)

Ashley thought you were the one @3:02 PM

Wednesday - August 3, 2005 - Sloppy Firsts...

Great book, Gabbie reccommended it to me, so I figured I'd try it out. It was awesome, now I can't wait to read the sequel, as it does end on a cliffhanger.
The book really made me reflect back on myself and my life, you know. Its about a girl who is a sophomore in high school and feels all alone and doesn't fit in. I kind of felt like that this year, especially near the end. Everyone seemed so fake and people got really cliquey and exclusive and I always felt left out, like I didnt really belong with them. I began to question why I hung out with certain people, a majority of my friends actually. It was weird to read about the girl in the book, Jess, doing the same thing.

Short break so I can dig up my library card...

Found it easily once I routed through my purse. I just remembered, on an ADD spurt, that Old Navy opens today. I wish I could go, I want a pair of their cords, they have them in like every color. I am going over Sarah's today though, so unfortunatly thats a no go.

Back to my previous topic; I was actually talking to Sarah about all the cliquey-ness of last year. She felt the same way, which I was glad to hear, only in the respect that I wasnt alone in my outlandishness. She also said she didnt think I seemed out of place, which was a nice consolance, but nothing can truly change the way one feels right. The end of last year I was so glad to get out of school and away from everyone, I totally connected with the way Jess felt in the book, only Jess felt that way like every day.
Also, it puts a "perspective" on my problems, woes, and daily life. Not to mention its a good story, lol. It teaches you a lesson, as in any good book. Jess really had to "get out of the boat" and try things and be more open with people, a virtue I also could use.

Blah, too much writing, my brain is once again overworked, lol. It is resisting any more thinking. Time to get the sparknotes for Grapes of Wrath and start trying to think of how I am going to pull this 6 page paper out of thin air.(contemplative)