Blog Archive 6

November 2004
Monday, November ?, 2004 - Gotta Keep Moving On
I didn't make the basketball team, oo poo. lol. No, I am definitly doing shotput though. I went to practice before basketball today and talked to the coach, Todd, he seems nice enough. It should be fun, with Sarah, Kate Ecker the freshman and Ashley Cleaver, then some annoying guys, lol. I better go, time is a ticking, ( I am way too tired to care how corny I sound, and I seem to let my corniness-if that could be considered a word- slip more when I am tired, it is my natural frame of mind after all, lol). I better get to bed before I go crazy ,lol. No Brad ranting tonight, he is too FRUSTRATING, AHHH. That is the first thing I thought when I saw him this morning after not seeing him for like a week and a half, Brad is so frustrating. I really must bid thee farewell, tenna' telwan.
Ashley cast a spell @11:57 PM
Saturday, November 27, 2004 - My body is dead
Yea, basketball tryouts. Need I say more? My legs are like dead weight, seriously. We had practice from 2-4 and 6-8 on Friday, the first session was the worst, almost entirely running. Today it was from 10-2 straight and then back at 8-9. I am so drained. I played like crap, and will probably not make it. I cried, but now I'm done, its all good, I am over it. I think I am going to do winter track instead, crew is still up in the air. Many advantages to winter track. 1-Hang out with Sarah 2-almost assured a varsity letter 3-B-rad might do it 4-its a lot easier than bball or crew. I am almost to the point where I don't want to make it, lol. I am so abslutely tired. Thank god tomorrow is a day off, but I have to do all my school work then, so it is still not a really relaxing day. I am getting off pretty soon, maybe I'll go do a meme, I really liked that dinner one. It is pretty sad, that it hurts to sneeze or laugh. ttyl
Appetizer
How much money do you plan to spend this upcoming holiday season? Around $20 on my mom, dad, bro, Dan, and 2 secret santas
Soup
What was the last television show you watched, and was it good?Real World. Awesome, I love Philly, being from around there myself, and I like all the cast members this season, it is really fun to watch.
Salad
If you had to paint the walls of your living room tomorrow, what color would you choose? My family room, where we actually live is wood so we probably wouldn't paint it, but my living room per say would probably look nice with a creme color
Main Course
Name something clever or practical you have thought of that should be invented, but hasn't yet.Hmm, I always though someone should invent a way to read books secretly, do you know what I mean? I love to read in school, but the teachers don't exactly love to see that so someone should come up with a way so it looks like your doing something else somehow, I don't know.
Dessert
List 3 things you would like to receive as gifts this holiday season.A laptop, Brad (j/k, but actually not, not really a gift though, but w/e), return of the king extended edition (can't wait)(sore)
Ashley cast a spell @12:23 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004 - It's My Party
Yea, my party tonight, I really have to get off the computer and get busy doing everything to get ready for it, as I only have about 2 and a half hours until it starts. Can't wait. Just dropped by to add the long post (previous one). Anyway, gtg.(busy)
Ashley cast a spell @3:26 PM
Friday, November 19, 2004 - LIfe is box of chocolates...
...you never know what you're going to get. A nice quote my friend Kate loves to put in her away message.
I just took two email quiz things, I'll include one since I don't do the Friday Five anymore or anything like it cuz they all suck...

B a s i c s
1) Single or Taken: single, unfortunatly (as many of you know,lol)
2) Your Age: 16
3) Sign: Libra
4) Siblings: Bro Alex, 8
5) Hair color: medium brown I guess, all natural, lol
6) Eye color: blue, changes shades
7) Shoe size: 8-9
8) Full name as stated on birth certificate: Ashley Anne Grant
R e l a t i o n s h i p s
1) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I wish, actually not really
2) Did you send this to your crush?: I don't even know his sn lol
3) Did your crush send this to you?: sure,lol
E x t r a S t u f f
1) Do you do drugs?: only on the weekends, j/k
2) What kind of shampoo do you use?: herbal essences
3) What kind of conditioner do you use?: pantene pro-v (is that aussie stuff any good I always wanted to try it just because it has a kangarro on it,lol)
4) What are you most scared of: failure and rejection
5) What are you listening to right now: Evite soundtrack
6) What car do you wish to have: one that works, preferably (if I didn't have to pay) a jeep grand cherokee
7) Who's the last person you talked on the phone with: Sarah
8) Where do you want to get married?: not sure
9) How many messenger buddies do you have online right now?:29
10) Any tattoos or piercing?: 1 piercing in each ear
F a v o r i t e s 1) Color: cerulean
2) Your favorite food: pasta and bread
3) What's your favorite subject in school: English, even though I suck at it
4) What's your favorite animal?: siberian tigers
5) What's your favorite sport: crew, soccer, basketball
H a v e Y o u E v e r
1) Given anyone a bath?: i can't recall
2) Bungee jumped: not yet
3) Broken the law: yes, too many to recount
4) Made yourself throw-up?: definitly not
5) Gone Skinny Dipping?: no
6) Ever been in love?: hard to answer
7) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? no, I dont get in trouble, lol, j/k
8) Gotten Drunk?: no, though I've been to a drinking party(carousel-vocab word,lol) as Chelsea can vouch for
9) Gotten arrested or almost?: no
F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s
1) Do you like filling these out?: kind of, when I have the time
(fun to read when people give interesting 2+ word answers)
2) How many people are you sending this to?: who cares
3) Who will send it back:
4) Gold or Silver: Silver
5) What is the last film you saw at the movies: Ladder 49 with my Dad on his bday, pretty good, surprising ending, really unexpected (alfie=___by j,lol)
6) What are you most looking forward to this year? (Catallion*cotillion, I am not actually anticipating it too badly)i don't know, the drama is actually fun when you aren't in it,lol
7) What is the thing that you are least looking forward to to this year?: bball tryouts and future 2ks

Those things are actually fun to do when I have nothing better to do as now, being at my Mom's. I won't elaborate, I am actually pretty calm right now, so I'd like to stay that way.
Anyway, I am reading Ella Enchanted for the millionth time (great book, the plot and whole story is so great- it is so romantic and just wonderful, I could go on for a day, it really touches you, it is also romantic, anyway, moving on,lol). I should be reading to Kill a Mockingbird for English, did you know that it is Michael Phelp's favoirte book,lol. I say lol a lot don't I, oo well, just the way I am I suppose. I have fun, there is nothing wrong with laughing, they day it makes you live longer. I always think lol means lots of laughs, but I think I am just about the only person in the world with that conception, lol. As everyone tells me it really means laugh out loud.
Even though I promised myself I would never talk about Brad anymore, I can't help myself. He is like a bad addiction, as soon as I start to get over him, I fall right back where I started. I'm definitly not as obssessed as I was before though. I want him to go to homecoming so I can dance with him and then I will vow to myself to let it be over, cuz I know he doesn't like me, I just can't thouroughly convince my whole self of that axiom (another vocab word, means self-evident truth, I always say a million of them the day or so following a test, and I just had one today, lol).
I am watching Moulin Rouge right now, good movie, I love the music, just fabulous. That reminds me, I said I'd reviews some of the movies I've seen lately.

Shall We Dance

Ok, I am so bored, and can't focus on writing anything consrtuctive, I've done too much work lately, been too concentrated, so yes, on to other more iteresting things. I am trying to fix the site up, occupy my time, I am planning the next layout, can't work on it at my mom's because she doesn't have psp. I am actually thinking of getting rid of my Lord of the Rings site. Sadly, it doesn't get much traffic, especially now all the hype with the movies is over. I never find the time to work on it anymore, it really doesn't have much to begin with either. It is sad though, because that was my first site a long time ago.

cool memes
friday five-http://www.livejournal.com/community/thefridayfive/
-http://www.livejournal.com/community/fridayfiver/
weekend wonderings-http://tragic-enchantment.net/weekend/
saturday-meeting of the minds(thinkers)-http://www.thebooge.ca/motm/

Well, my internet isn't working anymore, so I'll have to finish looking through those at a later time
(tuesday)saturday-in other words(quotes)-http://cfcl.com/vlb/Memes/inotherwords.shtml
-pieces of you?-http://p-o-y.diaryland.com
-Saturday 8-http://saturday8.blogspot.com/
Not working again. It is getting pretty annoying.
-sexy saturday(sex)-http://sexysaturday.vacuity.de/
-something for the weekend-http://urbansilver.net/sfs/
Sunday-re:blog(about blogging)-http://justagirlintheworld.com/archives/category/re-blogs/
-sunday brunch(food)-http://www.sundaybrunch.org/
Gosh, it froze again, I am really having no luck tonight.
-first four-http://www.todaysissues.net/four/
-weekly bit(various word games)-http://weeklybit.blogspot.com/
-unconscious mutterings(free association)-http://subliminal.lunanina.com/
Friday-friday forum(conversational)-http://bathtubjunkie.star-shaped.org/archives/cat_friday_forum_blog_meme.html
-friday feast-http://fridaysfeast.blogspot.com/
Appetizer
What do you think is the perfect age to get married? To have a first child? To retire?-24, 26,75
Soup
If you could change occupations tomorrow, what would you want to do for a living?-(in the future for me)professor
Salad
What does the color green make you think of?-grass
Main Course
What is something that has happened to you over the last year that you didn't expect?-I didn't expect that I would get really close to Kate, Chelsea, Ro, and Michelle and form our little clique that we have, I enjoy it though, it is pretty cool to have a group of friends you can rely on no matter what.
Dessert
How old were you when you had your first kiss?-4th grade,9 with my next door neighbor, Jeremy Schichtle. It was a dare, and we continued doing the same for a while. I actually still have the lip gloss I put on before it, and save it for special occasions,lol.
-fridayq-http://www.blogography.com/fridayq.html
-the weigh it is(food,etc)-http://www.77pounds.net/weigh/
I should probably organize this better later, I am making too many interjections. I don't know, I keep on thinking about Brad, kind of. Ambivalent do I seem? Lol, yes, I don't make much sense I suppose. What I really mean to say, is that, I keep having romantic, or other such fanciful notions. They don't revolve necessarily around Brad, but he appears many a time in them. I just, I don't know. The whole thing befuddles me for lack of a better word.
When Harry Met Sally is a great movie. It has so many great lines and truths in it. Especially the one where Harry starts "I love how you get cold when its 71 degrees outside, how it takes you half an hour to order a sandwich..." It is really great. Back to B-rad. Whenever I see him I can't help but smile and stare, it cheers me up. However, then I almost immediately remember all the facts of the matter how he almost surely, no just surely doesn't like me and how I want to forget about him and on and on. It gets me frustrated and then I just get befuddled and want to yell AHRR!! lol.
Thursday-thursday tattle-http://www.kathleenscountrycorner.com/thursdaystattle.htm
-thursday threesome-http://othersideofglenroad.org/backporch/
-theater thursday(movies)-http://theaterthursday.blogspot.com/
I think I just like the idea of having a boyfriend. I want a real one, you know. I have only ever had one actual one before, Jeremy really doesn't count and nothing ever developed with Jay though I am pretty sure he liked me. Whittier, well, we never really went anywhere, you know and we only went out for about a month or so. I want a guy who I can really trust and just confide in. I mean, I have girl friends, but I only feel I can trust them to a certain extent, and you only get so close with them and it is just a big mess. NOt that guys are any easier, I know, what relationship I had with Whittier didn't go so well.
I am getting off, I have been on forever, namarie

Ashley cast a spell @11:45 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004 - B-rad, not working
Yea, my whole ignoring him plan isn't working out so well. I don't have enough will power to carry it out. I start well at the beginning of the day, but by like 4th period, which I have with him, sitting behind him, I am done. I fell bad, all my friends enjoy making fun of him. Chelsea is saying he looks like a mokey, at lunch when he sat at the next table and after school as he walked by, and mind you, Chelsea is pretty loud. She said his name after school and I think he actually heard her because he turned around as she said it, lol. I just wonder what he thinks. I hope he goes to homecoming, just so I can dance with him, because I'd like to. He isn't bringing a date, and Caitlin told me his birthday is on December 21. He actually talked today in Driver's Ed, usually he just sits there very quietly, but a group of us are presenting on December 21 and he was telling the kid who sits next to me that that is his birthday. I don't know what to think, I know he doesn't like me, but w/e. I asked him 2nd what driver's ed homeowrk was in the library. I better go, still have to study for Chem, which I'll probably fail, along with all my other tests recently. (cold)
Ashley cast a spell @9:48 PM
Saturday, November 13, 2004 - Quick
Real quick, I am watching a show on Alexander the Great on the history channel, pretty good. I have a regatta tomorrow, wish me luck, it should be good. I really hope I win a medal, it would be nice, and then we should all wear them to school on monday, and laugh in everyone's faces because crew rocks. It is over for the season though, don't know my opinion on that. More time though, and then basketball starts in 2 weeks, yay, I really have to get in shape, I am so out of it.
I have to go now, go read and watch tv, ttyl (excited)
Ashley cast a spell @6:34 PM
Tuesday, November 9, 2004 - Brad is so yesterday
Yea, I've decided I am done with him, lol. This revelatoin came to me during 4th period. After lunch, I went to the library with Kate and Chelsea. I saw Sarah sitting with Havier and Brad, so I went over to talk to her and she told me to sit down. We were talking, I kind of faced Sarah a bit more than Brad who was on my other side, but he said maybe two words the whole time, and then got up and went to talk to his friends at another table and then left early. I got the message, lol. So, he doesn't like me, the world has and will not end. To ensure I get over him I am going to avoid/ignore him for a while til I am cured, lol. Meanwhile I am going to try and find a new obssession, which includes not writing about him, so this is it, for a long time if not forever, I am sure you are rejoicing, lol.
I am making a new layout already, a winter one this time. The current layout isn't too bad and I love Halloween, its just winter is coming soon so my fall theme will be out of date. I am going, mucho homework to complete, and I need to work on ridding myself of my current obssession and finding a new one. farewell (determined)
Ashley cast a spell @6:34 PM
Sunday, November 7, 2004 - Obssessing
I desperately need something to happen with Brad. Every minute of my waking day, I think of him at least once within. I even dreamt about him last night, subconsciensly, then you know it is bad. The only other guy I have ever really dreamed about is Jay, and that was a really hard crush. I still don't know what went on there. In reflection, it seems definitly as if he were flirting with me. Whether he might have actually liked me but never did anything more becasue I was so much younger and he was going out with Ryan or whether it was just a more sister-brother playful thing, I don't know. There was definitly something going both ways though, and that is why it hit me so hard, because he actually responded. Forgetting Jeremy, because he is just a weird one, Jay was probably the first guy I was ever serious about. I've been pretty dry ever since, or I at least like to think so because Whitter is just one name I'd like to pretend never existed, lol.
Brad, I am hoping, however, will be around for a while. I made a deal with Erica today that if she asked Aaron to cotilion I would ask Brad, if nothing drastcially changes. If I find out he likes someone else, I am going to try and forget about him, as best I can and give up any attempts. I just really want to have a boyfriend, it has been so long, Whittier really doesn't count because we never got really close.
I was watching the end of American Dreams tonight and my heart just died when I saw Meg and the neighbor(Milo) embracing, it was just such a perfect moment, sad for Meg, but just picturesque. Sarah was telling me that she heard last year in the beginning of the year Brad was still prude, but he had had a girlfriend or supposedly he was a good boyfriend. It only made me want to get together with him more. It is really all on him, now though. Sarah is trying to tell me people are attracted to people wo aren't into them. I can't help myself, sorry, I just have to hope with every breath in me that hope against hope he might like me. I seriously doubt it, but what is there to lose in hoping. Dawn is ever the hope of man (good lotr quote there,lol). Dawn actually isn't too far away, I better go finish my lab, so I'll ttyl.
Gavin Degras "I Don't Wanna Be"
Lindsey Lohan ""
Kelly Clarkson "Learn How to Fly"
Maroon 5 "She Will Be Loved"
"Christmas Waltz" and other Chritmas songs
sick(stomach hurts), famished,lol
Ashley cast a spell @12:38 AM
Tuesday November 2, 2004 - Election
Gosh, I have really bad writer's block. I really can't think of anything to write, it takes me like 15 minutes to get 4 words, it is very frustrating. I really am having a hard time writing, it is annoying.
Things went better today with Brad, now that I didn't talk to him. I thought he noticed me a bit more, or at least looked at me a bit more today copared to yesterday which really doesn't make any sense, but w/e. I still have to ask him about the fashion show stuff, most people just took it to the front office but I thought we had to take it somewhere else.
I really wish I could just get into his head, like he had a diary I could read to know what he thinks. I want to know if I should bother trying to talk to him or if it is useless and I am just going to have these one-sided conversations everytime. Whether he just isn't comfortable enough to really talk with me or if he is actually purposely avoiding me and trying to brush me off.
Later- well, I am sort of starting to get somewhere, lol. I still think it sounds like crap though.
Even Later- 353 words now, yay, lol. only about 150 left. I actually think I know where I am going, so that is something right,lol. I am going to reward myself with going online. Great I know. I am also watching the election, I really hope Bush wins, I am seriously worried for the country if Kerry wins if only for the reason that he changes his mind almost once a day and uncertainty is not good with terrorists. I'm sorry, you can't make deals with people who are willing to blow themselves up to kill innocent bystandards for some ridiculous extremist cause. (210 Bush 188 Kerry right now)(blah)
Ashley cast a spell @11:22 PM
Bush is doing well, just declared that he won Florida, he only needs 33 votes now. It looks like he might do it, yay,lol
511 yay!!! (words that is,lol, didn't want to get you confused there). I think Bush is going to win, as long as he keeps Ohio he will be fine, and even if he loses that he still has a good chance of winning. 246 to 195
later, bush has 269, 1 more to go, I think he has got it, yay!! I am almost done my paper, and am studying for english test tmw with Sarah now. gtg, so long.(tired)
Ashley cast a spell @1:07 AM
Monday, November 1, 2004 - B-Rad is Gay
Not really, Brad is just really annoying me. I tried carrying a conversation with him in homeroom and he was very unreceptive. He only answered the two questions I asked him, both which I had to repeat and just didn't say anything else. I want to ask him where he dropped off his fashion show stuff though for real cuz no one else knows where to put it. He'll prbably just be like I dropped it of there, and walk away or something, lol. Maybe he is getting freaked out by me because I kind of stalk him, lol. W/e, if nothing happens soon I am going to give up because I am getting really annoyed and it is starting not to be fun anymore. I am going to sit behind him in Driver's Ed. when that starts though so I can ask to borrow his workbook because I never got one. It will be interesting, maybe I can start a conversation that way. I am going to the beginning of film club tomorrow but I have to leave pretty early to goto the orthodontist, I wonder if Brad will be there, with my luck he'll decide not to just because he sees me. That would be a great way to start a convesation though, to talk about the film. Man, the ideas just keep on coming, lol. Now all I have to get him to do is actually talk. I really just want to get to know him better though, i don't know, he is one funny bunny. LMAO. j/k, I just really like that saying I can't help but laugh.(irate)
Ashley cast a spell @8:20 PM
The blog
The site