Archive 7...
December 2004
Thursday, December 30, 2004 - blah, blah, blah
That is a great description for how I feel today. My head hurts, feeling slightly lightheaded. I don't have the faintest idea as to why, but my braces have been cutting the inside of my mouth unrelentingly the past few days making it harder than usual to speak. I am also tired as I did not get much sleep last night staying over Michelle's house with the rest of "the gang".The party was fun, most certainly. The most memorable part, for me at least, was one of Brice's infamous comments. Rob and Kevin, sex crazed as they are, were not unusually talking about jerking off which they endeared for the night with the new name of "bricing". They asked him if he had ever killed anyone with it and he replied, "Have you heard about that tsunami?" After a split second of awe and shock inspired silence everyone cracked up, Rob and Kevin just looked at Brice in an entirely new light. We shared some secrets, etc, all the usual stuff.
Appetizer: Using only 5 words, describe how 2004 went for you. change,
Soup: Name something you did in 2004 that you'll probably never do again. Take a summer math class at Bishop Eustace (or even like math at all)
Salad: What did you learn about yourself in 2004?I have no self confidence and I am absolutly average
Main Course: What notable news event from 2004 will stand out most in your memory? George Bush wins re-election
Dessert: Name something you purchased in 2004 that you really, really like.I'll get back to you on that one...
I really don't feel like talking about new year's resolutions, all I have to say on that matter is that I hope 2005 will be as good if not better than 2004, which was not really a bad year I suppose.
This is the first time in a long while I've gone on the conputer simply for non-schoolwork purposes. I have spent nearly 3 and a half hours doing almost nothing, fun, let me tell you. I need to get off soon. It is nice to blog though, I always enjoy writing, or at least, non-structured freehand writing. It is interesting to see who reads your blog, I wish I could configure a way to get comments up, something with greymatter, I don't have the time to figure or sort it all out right now: another day. I could get freaked out by who reads my blog and be like, oh I can't post anything personal anymore. Really, I am at the point where I could care less. For what other reasons would I post in a blog online if not for wanting people to see it. The truth hurts, but so what, it is my truth, don't read it if you don't want to. I try to make my truth the nicest it can be (not by changing or twisting), if you have a problem, deal or talk to me about it you know?
Things on my mind lately include Cotillion, which is fast approaching and also the fact that I have no date and no great prospects. The dreaded Crucible paper for English. Back to Cotillion, I really don't know what to do, I am lost. Brad is obviously my first choice, but I have to agree with Kate, there is no hope there. Sarah and Kate said I should go with Brice: not a bad idea but I doubt he'd consent to that. That is basically all there is to it. There is no one else, so I am basially screwed, but I prefer not to think about the future, lol. I give up. (drained)
Ashley cast a spell @12:17 PM
Wednesday, December 28, 2004 - Shortie
I am gonna be real fast because I have to get ready for the party and wrap Steve's gift still, lol. Not much really to say, haven't seen Brad obviously. I discovered I definitly don't like Joe Regina in that way. I waited with him after track so he wouldn't be alone and I could tell then. He is such an awesome guy though, so gentlemanly. If only all guys were like that, the world would be such a better place. Kate's magnanimous problems would be solved, lol. Joe, I could write for an hour on him, he is just that awesome. He always lets you throw before him, picks up your shot for you when we retrieve, is very courteous in speech: calling us ladies, lol. He is just kind, generous, and nice for lack of a better word in general.I better go now before I get in trouble, farewell. (chipper-thought it looked interesting when I came across it)
Playlist-Sound of Music and My Fair Lady Soundtracks (Christmas presents)
Ashley cast a spell @3:54 PM
Monday, December 20, 2004 - What just happened?
Okay this is so weird, I did "the love oracle" at seventeen.com just to see what it would say. I picked 21 and got a berry symbol, it actually appeared on the next page in the crystal ball as it was supposed to, and then I got this fortune,Good thing you're drawn to the 'berry, because your girlfriends were getting pretty tired of all the gushing about your crush. They've got sweet relief coming because the strawberry is a symbol of love reciprocated! It may seem like you've been Miss Invisibility for forever now, but the guy you've been secretly fawning over is finally going to wake up and give you a chance. You knew all that undercover sleuthing about his fave activities and memorization of his class schedule would pay off, didn't you? Try not to have a fainting spell when he slips you a note or grabs your number from a friend — concentrate on what you're going to wear when he asks you out!
How weird is that. That is like my exact situation, it is so ironic. I am still gaping, it is so weird. I doubt it will actually happen, though it would be unspeakably awesome if it did. I still can't get over how that thing worked perfectly. I didn't even tell the site my number or symbol, they gave you the chart to use and then you had to focus on the symbol. Even if they had got the symbol right, I can't believe how the fortune was so perfect, that is the really unrealistic part. I better go start my homework, I'll almost certainly be back later.(shocked)
Ashley cast a spell @4:44 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004 - O.C.
Watching th O.C. and typing my lab report at the moment. This show is surprisingly good, I hadn't thought it would be, but it really isn't bad at all. I prerconally like Seth, although Sarah prefers Ryan. I really think Seth and Summer are going to get back together, or at least I am hoping they will. I'd like to see Marissa and Ryan get back with each other but I don't think that will ever happen, or at least not for more than a show.I hate homework, I really can't wait until Christmas break if only for that reason, though it is only a week and a half because our rector is the grinch, putting it nicely.
Joe, I don't know about him. I think I have figured out, however, that I have an attraction for him just because he is pretty cute, as anyone could agree with me, and he is the sweetest guy you will ever meet. He is very gentleman-like and just great altogether. I still, rather unfortunatly like Brad. I can't begin to tell what he thinks or feels. He doesnt look at me any more than before, or talk to me at all. Weird things: he stood by my locker today, didn't talk to me but w/e, he's never done that before, could be complete coincidence. He also, maybe its just me, could have been looking at me after school. I hate all this guessing, I had really hoped it would end whe I told Brad I liked him, guess not. He's too shy to do anything if he likes me, and if he doesn't like me he can't really teach me that differently.
OC is over, Ill watch Life As We Know It after, finish homework, goto bed, and dream about Brad, lol (though last night I dreamed about Joe) (flirty)
Ashley cast a spell @8:59 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004 - Excitment
I came into school late today (orthodontist appointment) so I missed homeroom, unfortunate. I would especially liked to have been there today because yesterday I got Kate to tell Brad I liked him. She said, Brad. Do you know Ashlye Grant. I think she likes you. Great Kate, lol. He didn't really act any different today. Kate said he blushed when she told him and it seemed like he kind of already knew (which certainly wouldnt surprise me). The only event today were he was standing strangley close to me and Steve after school (Brad had a weird jacket on today) and Sarah said she saw him at one point hovering, looking around by his locker, between Sarah at Steve's and me at mine. I don't know, I doubt he likes me, I am just glad it is over with so now I can move on.I should probably go write my Religeon paper, about my own paschal experience, pretty stupid but whatever. I am talking to this guy who just imed me out of nowhere. He started by talking about lotr. then he asked about general stuff, he just asked me to be his online girlfriend, it is just so weird, I don't trust his for a penny, but it is funny at the least.(okay)
Ashley cast a spell @10:59 PM
Monday, December 13, 2004 - Mental Health Day
I turned off my alarm this morning going back to sleep and thus missed my bus. When I went to tell Dad he said I should stay home, mostly because he didn't feel like getting up to drive me but also he said I should take a day off because I was really tired. I had thought about doing that so I didn't have the willpower to resist his offer. I went back to bed and slept until 2 in the afternoon. Reminds me a dream I had last week where I overslept, til 2 and then thought about going to school.odd.I really have to get off and get some work done, I didnt do much considering I had the day off.
Appetizer Make up a word and give us its definition.superfrastic-(made it up with my friend Daina in like 5th grade) it means perfect.
Soup What is currently your favorite song? Of the moment I really like Marroon 5's Sunday Morning, just reminds me of Brad for some reason and is a really good song in general.
Main Course Name a scent that reminds you of someone special in your life.The firehouse, reminds me of my Dad who is probably the person I cherish most in my life (no offense to all my wonderful friends of course)
Dessert Who is someone on television that you feel probably shouldn't be, and why?Howard Stern, he is such a waste of time, all he says is trash.(apathetic-a vocab word, how fitting, means having no emotion or feeling)
Ashley cast a spell @10:03 PM
Tuesday, December 7, 2004 - blah, blah, blah
AppetizerTell about a toy you remember from your childhood.My doll and her baby which I called baby and baby's baby.
Soup
If you could make one thing in the world absolutely free for everyone, what would it be?books
Salad
Approximately how many times per day do you think about your significant other?B-rad isn't exactly my significant other but I think about him all the time.
Main Course
Name something you believe in 100%.my love for B-rad
Dessert
List 3 things you did this year that you would consider a "good deed."...(tired)
Ashley cast a spell @11:31 PM
Monday, December 6, 2004 - Happiness (or what once was)
I have been pretty happy for all of today. I don't know why I was just very positive and generally high-spirited. It was a good day. Now, it is not so well, coming home to Alex and school work is not exactly inviting, let me tell you.Okay, I will finish this tomorrow I am too tired now.(elated)
Ashley cast a spell @11:31 PM